Things I’m Thinking About

1) The template on this blog requires a title.  I think that’s silly.  What if I just want to write something and don’t want a title?  Life is so hard. It was my Mom’s dying wish that I wouldn’t have to title this post unless I wanted to.
2) Because of my Hamline requirements, I’ve been required to do some teaching observations lately.  In the past month I’ve observed 4 of my colleagues in their classrooms.  HOLY MOLY.  These peeps are good.  They are really good teachers.  What an honor for me to watch and learn not only from other teachers, but from my own colleagues!
3) I’m a good teacher, too.  That feels weird and good to “say.”  I’m not one to publicly praise myself, but I’d like to be better at it…within reason.  I’m a good teacher, too.
4) Yesterday, Paul and I celebrated our 6 year date-aversary. I think that’s awesome!  He took me out on a surprise date! I love so many things about him, and one of the things is that he will celebrate anything with me.
5) Have you celebrated anything recently? If not, can you make something up? “I put on my pants today!” or “I found my keys on the first try!”  You deserve to celebrate, even if it’s made up.
6) The MN Landscape Arboretum is a magnificent and magical place.  I think you’d really love it there.  We were there last night for our date-aversary. We saw Bruce Munro’s light installation. It was so beautiful (exhibit closes on April 9!) and a wonderful way to spend time together.  When we finished with the lights we made S’mores at a station they had set up.  It was lovely. So, yeah. You should go to the Arb.
7) I am amazed at how depressed I was on 2/12. I’m still thinking about it.  I just didn’t think about the anniversary of the FUNeral…it didn’t occur to me that would be a difficult day.  But, of course it could be.  The anniversary of a ceremony commemorating a person’s life can have a profound affect on a person.  But her FUNeral was such a wonderful day, and I don’t have any negative associations with it…I was just surprised. I was surprised at how awful I felt, at how I couldn’t be out of bed for more that an hour before needing to go rest again. It was just…odd.
8) I pick up the phone to call/text Mom at least once a day. Oh, how I wish she would be able to answer me.
9) When I am in a dark place I wish Mom was alive, even with all of her health issues.  I want her to be here for ME, even if that means she isn’t living her own life fully.
10) When I am in a good place I’m grateful for all of the time we had together and I am so happy she isn’t hurting anymore.

Please keep your light shining brightly friends! It makes it so much easier for me to see in the dark.

Love you.

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